Integrity

I'm trying to be a person of integrity. Someone who does what she says and doesn't just present ideas and then not follow through on them. It's hard because I have so many random ideas that float through my head and oftentimes I vocalize them, completely sincerely, but don't always follow through in the end.

God always talks about guarding our tongue and watching what we say, and I think one of the reasons he says this is because our words have such power. We have the power to hurt and to heal to honor and to destroy all with the slip of a tongue or a well thought out phrase. I think our words also have the power to create life or to take it away. We can create an entire world just through stories and dreams shared or we can also tear worlds down with negative ramblings or destructive words. 

It always hurts me so much when someone promises that they will do something and then they don't follow through. Even if it's a really small thing, for some reason the not following through part always stings. I don't want to be that person. And so many times I am. So many times I get a great idea and I talk about it and talk about it and then never do it. Or I plan on going somewhere or plan on starting something and I end up canceling my plans or not starting my something. 

Even when I have the best reasons for not doing whatever I said I would, it's still not right. I shouldn't say I will do something and then just change my mind. Even if I get sick or can't afford it or lose interest I shouldn't not follow through.

So I'm trying a new thing. I've been trying it intentionally for the last year or so, although I haven't always succeeded. But I'm trying to actually do the things I say I am going to do. Even if they seem outlandish. If I say it, I have to do it. 

So either I'm going to get into these crazy wild situations, spend way too much money, and experience all kinds of new things in life or I'll finally learn to guard my tongue and learn the practice of protecting others from possibly hurtful words. Either way I think I will gain some sort of integrity and sincerity.

Love.