Feeling God

It's funny how the times when you feel the lowest are usually the times when you feel God the closest. I know it's because he is carrying you through those times, because you are humbled and fragile and weak and need the righteousness and strength from your Father and Savior. But it still always surprises me. It's funny how we want to avoid these times the most. We fight and fight for comfort and stability in our lives, for calm waves and soft blue skies, for smiles and encouragement and peace of mind, but during these times we often forget about God. However, during those uncomfortable, teeth-clenched, emotional, turbulent times we remember who God is and how much we need a Deliverer.

So that's how I feel now. Comforted by my Creator. I feel closer to God than I have felt in the last several months. I feel like a weight has been lifted and like blinders have been taken off. I can finally stretch and feel free again and I am able to see Him more clearly. I never realize it when I'm in the darkness. Part of me always knows something is off, but the rest of me is too afraid to face it, confront it, and remove it. It's easier and safer to just keep the chain on than to face the pain of taking it off. But once it's removed, I always feel so much lighter.

So thank you God. Thank you for your persistence. Thank you for your compassion. Thank you for your patience. Thank you for your deliverance. Thank you for your presence. Thank you for your constant constant love.

I love you Dear One.

Love.