His Strength is perfect

I might already have a blog with this title. I am brain dead right now having worked ten hours and 45 mins today. Standing! Wowsers! My whole body aches. But I did it, and I really didn't think I would be able to. Which leads me to the point of this blog. My God is always strong. And when my strength fails me His strength is always perfect.

I heard this song on my drive home, while my eyes struggled to make out the lines and my head drifted off into space. I looked over and saw a sunset with streaks of pink and blue and yellow and thought about how beautiful God is. How much he loves us. He just does things like that, makes beautiful sunsets, a gentle breeze, warm nights just because he loves us.

I wish I was sleeping outside tonight. Laying in a field of dandelions with the white fuzzy stuff floating all over me and staring up at the sky. Feeling held by God. Warm and rested.

Sometimes I hit a low. A point in my life where I just want to crawl underneath a rock and hide. Oftentimes I just want to RUN. Far away. I've always considered myself a gypsy. Here for a short while then onto the next stop. Traveling the line on a train and staring out of the window. Dreaming big dreams with a whole life stretched out in front of me. Lately I've had the urge to run. But God reminds me that it is through the pain that he gets to the best parts of me. It is, like my tattoo reminds me, through my brokenness that I become beautiful.

My life is like a mosaic. Broken pieces of glass that most would have tossed away. But my Dad picks them up and glues them into a work of art. Something so beautiful out of all of the broken pieces.

God is so good. He reminds me of who I am even when I forget. He picks me up from ashes and starts afresh. He calms my gypsy soul and begs me to "Please just stay. Even when it's hard. Even when you want to run. Even when California calls your name and the train whistles sing you a lullaby. Just stay. Right here. For a while."

Here's the song I heard on the way home.

Love you so.

Strong Enough--Matthew West

You must, You must think I'm strong
To give me what I'm going through

Well forgive me
Forgive me if I'm wrong
But this looks like more than I can do
On my own

(Chorus)
I know I'm not strong enough to be
Everything that I'm supposed to be
I give up
I'm not stong enough
Hands of mercy won't you cover me
Lord right now I'm asking you to be
Strong enough
Strong enough
For the both of us

Well, maybe, maybe that's the point
To reach the point of giving up
Cause when I'm finally
Finally at rock bottom
Well, that's when I start looking up
And reaching out

Chorus

Cause I'm broken
Down to nothing
But I'm still holding on to the one thing
You are God
and You are strong
When I am weak

I can do all things
Through Christ who gives me strength
And I don't have to be
Strong enough
Strong enough

I can do all things
Through Christ who gives me strength
And I don't have to be
Strong enough
Strong enough

Chorus